Don't try so hard to impress, you are already wonderful! ~~~~~
"Versuch nicht so verzweifelt, Eindruck auf andere zu machen. Du bist bereits wunderbar!" DGR
Are you the same person you were a year ago? Ten years ago? Do not doubt that you will change..... however, you want those new changes to be positive, isn't that so? Buddhism is a successful program of orchestrated change, which leads to awakening. If we think the good people should be enlightened, we should think again. The bad people need to be enlightened even more! For one thing, they will stop harming others!
Western philosophy seems quite good (although I am not studied in it). However, where are the methods to learn transcendence? Seems like psychologists are the only contacts...